Ogres are born when our gifts are sent into shadow
These days, I believe each ogre, demon and gremlin, no matter how intolerable, have an ecological place inside of us. There is a reason they exist. They can be expressed, known and, with time, accepted – even embraced.
When I was little, I was very clear sighted and a born empath. The problem was, there were lots of secrets around that were not very safe to see and they were definitely not to be expressed. All those things were put into shadow, one by one. By the time I was an adult, the ogre telling me that seeing and expressing were forbidden had grown very strong and loaded with destructive monologue. Scary to look at, intolerable to listen to and very uncomfortable to live with.
Art makes inner wisdom visible
The blessing of art is that nothing is too big or horrendous for it. So I spent years, painting, dancing, writing, singing and sculpting my ogres and befriending them, while I started understanding my history and letting go of things that didn’t belong to me to begin with.
What turned my ogre into a gremlin – much more manageable and cranky rather than terrifying – was allowing myself to become present. When I realized that my truth was the only one that could help my art come out into the world, things started changing.
I went to the canvas or paper, as I go into my coaching practice – empty, open and allowing. Impulse by impulse, breath by breath, step by step, the work was born. What came through was what came through. My technical prowess, or often lack of it, was a non-issue in the act of creating. I allowed the artwork itself to be my teacher.
It was as if someone had turned on the tap. My imagination was flooded with ideas for paintings, stories, animal cartoons. When I allowed myself to be where I was, no more, no less, I could suddenly produce.
Getting to know the gremlin, ogre, monster, whatever
So these days, when a gremlin turns up, or even an ogre, I get curious. I ask:
Who are you?
Where do you come from?
What color are you?
How fast do you move?
Do you have a sound?
Where do you live?
What do you eat?
How big are you?
When I have this new aquaintance there on the page, I can talk to it, interact with it and understand it better.
You imagine – I draw
There is a lot of drawing going on here, behind the scenes. The offer still stands, I will draw your gremlin, ogre or whatever it is that is awakened. Or, better yet, if you want to draw/paint/sculpt/write your own and share it with me, I welcome it. No strings attached.
(I don’t know if I’ve told you, but I love the space where two imaginations meet . <3)
No matter where you are and no matter how the champions and gremlins of your creativity make themselves know to you, they can be made into art.
What color is YOUR gremlin?