So, tiger wants to join the crazy melee of self-love, bewilderment and creating.
Eleven years ago, I made my final artwork of Taidekoulu Maa. An sculpture, sown together with of small pieces of superlon, taken from my childhood mattress. At first I wanted the final work to be part tiger, part woman. But then my warm head teacher asked me [didn’t tell me] how the sculpture felt, being half and half.
I remember resisting the change in my idea, at the same time as I felt the sadness of being just a half intensely.
In any case, the sculpture that was born and that was exhibited looked like this.
What I now see is that the sculpture was so descriptive of my artist identity at the time of graduation. Already a tiger, yes. But completely without skin.
So, when Anna-Karolina contacted me and asked me if she could make a skin of felt for my tiger, I jumped into the adventure.
The tiger was completely changed.
From a work of art into something that reminded me and everyone else of a plush toy. At the same time as I kind of liked the finished work, I also missed the naked tiger inside. Conceptually interesting was also that the first impulse of many people was to go and sit on the befurred version of the tiger.
As I started floundering my way into this newest collection, the tiger started tugging at me. This happens sometimes. Artwork starts to have its own mind. So I contacted the Fur-mama and asked her if I could buy back her part of the tiger.
Today at the studio, tiger joined the fray.
I have absolutely no idea how this project will come together. But I am having a lot of fun, as well as lots of moments of insight into the energy that I’m building with this work. Closeness and intimacy with myself or others starts growing when I allow myself to feel everything and then sink under those feelings, through sensations all the way into my core and dare let my defences be released.
I’m still learning about the difference between defences and boundaries, but getting there. So is tiger.